a day..

i am a rider of the clear skies the monsoon mist leaves me melancholic the clear sky is harbinger of hope a gloom hangs with the mist much like my mind shadowed in the doubts and fear

i have been thinking about a few things in life offlate..how we change, we evolve over time..how perceptions change etc etc..our own perceptions define a lot of our evolutionary process.. i have come to realise that i no longer have very strict definitions of right or wrong.. in general there is an apathy in life.. a huge amount of inertia coupled with a very 'busy' day will sum me up lately..and i just realise that there is no room for feelings or emotions in my life.. the things that define me today are altogether different from what they were a couple of years ago.. then was it my work only that changed me? actually i am not ambitious at all.. i am good at my work but definitely not ambitious..i work to save myself from my ownself..yes in a twisted way true..i valued people.. i was a lot more straight jacketed.. i had very strong definitions of right, wrong.. over time all of it has been diluted..i have become 'liberated' yet i dont feel free..maybe the isolation syn...