i am...

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sometimes you wonder why is someone important to you
then again you wonder how did someone become so important

there are not many times in life when u are faced with a situation that will change the course of life..i faced one today..
when a person goes away..it ends so much..memories no longer u can claim as yours..tears quietly shed..distract yourself with meaningless thoughts in your head..try to silence the voices in your head..when i look at other people i feel like a loser...did i disappoint you or let you down? should i be feeling guilty or let the judges frown..i see a picture in the past and the faraway future...images in my head have no resonance with reality..a fuzz in my head will make me numb..i want some peace some quietness..to drown myself..i need solace from everyday things..i want to lie with you quietly..silently..no questions no tears..an illusion i have created for myself...

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